Source:
Alexandra Feodorovna: Diaries and Correspondence, volume 2: Engagement and Marriage, 1894, pages 23 to 24, by George Hawkins, 2023
The letter:
No. 6
Windsor Castle
May 7th 1894
My love,
A tender kiss and fondest thanks for you[r] dear note I received this morning. How very long it took coming from the frontier. It was sweet of you writing from there, as you must have been rather exhausted after the heat.
This morning, I drove with Gretchen to Cumberland Lodge to see Aunt Helena, snipe and family. I drove two ponies — if only we may be allowed to drive to-gether, but I doubt it very much indeed as Granny is very old fashioned about engaged people and most particular.
It is warmer and sunny but high wind at the same time. Victoria and Louis have left again for Walton, and Liko to Cowes for his health. I have still not yet heard anything about Frl. Schneider and am anxious to know when she is coming.
There is a "charming" "young" Lord Waiting here and he seems to like to speak to the owl. Think of our Coburg young R. Do you order me to make myself available with him, or wld Granny — you be shocked and offended? Eh? You great goose. I fear you know you are safe with yr Spitzbub, and so she cannot teaze you. I do so long for you, but it will be a little comfort when I hear oftener from you.
To-night the Staals are coming and an other ambassador and the Cumberland Lodge family. Last night young Arthur Hardinge dined. His sister is Maid of Honour, but going to marry soon and his Aunt was Lady in Waiting to dear Mama. He kissed hands on his appointment as minister at Zanzibar where he is going next week. I think they liked him at St Petersburg, at least he was very happy there — he enjoyed so traveling with you in India, only grieved it was so short. Anybody who knows my sweet Darling interests me of course doubly. I am spelling impossibly I find to-day, but you will excuse my faults, won't you and not be too severe judge but one has one's days, when one cannot write properly.
Precious one, I love you, oh, so dearly, and cannot tell it you often enough. I feel deep and strongly but have learned in the years to swallow my feelings down, so that now I cannot show them properly, but you understand yr silly old Pelly, don't you?
We read Sophie's discriptions of the earthquake, they must have been too ghastly for words — all those innocent little children crushed in the Church — one cannot bear to think of it, it is too terrible.
I wonder how the Weeping Willow is celebrating his birthday down at Abastouman? Granny was speaking of yr cossack suit, how fine it was, I think she remembered your father in it, but has never seen you wear it, so I told her you were bringing it here.
I must dress now for driving with Granny. Goodbye and God bless you, my own precious Nicky and let your little girl kiss you most tenderly.
Your very loving and devoted affectionate and trusting
Alix
Love to Xenia and Sandro
Above: Nicholas and Alix.
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