Source:
Alexandra Feodorovna: Diaries and Correspondence, volume 1: Princess of Hesse, 1872-1893, pages 291 to 292, by George Hawkins, 2023
The letter:
Darmstadt
Jan 10th 1893
My darling Xenia,
I send you my very fondest thanks for your dear letter, sweet Photo and pretty card, which all gave me immense pleasure. It seems so funny that you should already be quite a grown up lady as the last time I saw you, you wore short hair and frocks.
Poor little Chicken, I hope your rash is quite gone by this time and that you were able to spend a merry Xmas, it was so nice for us being able to spend it at Kiel, as the first time alone at home would have been too hard. I trust that the New Year will "bring unmeasured joy to thine heart, whilst all that can sadden or cause thee a tear, with the fast-dying year may depart." God bless you and may you have nothing but sunshine and happiness in your life.
Though I scarcely ever write to you, you must not think that it is because I have forgotten you, for my thoughts and prayers are constantly with you, and your photo goes along with me, so shall now the new little one. I send you a tiny one of me done last winter, it is taken out of a group wh was done in a room, so is not very like. I was taken in England and shall send you one of them an other time. You must excuse this horrible writing, but I am resting after having ridden in the manège.
Ernie is out shooting to-day, the weather is lovely, bright sun, blue skye, and everything white. Latterly we have been skating several times and it was so nice, it reminds me always of 89, when we used to fly down the icehills and scramble about with the balls, pellies and baskets.
To-day is Missy's Wedding, I am sure she will look lovely. I am going to Mossy's, but I must say I rather dread it, as I never care for such large festivities and all the dressing up and many people — it is the first time I go for such an occasion and I shall miss my own beloved Papa most awfully. Not a year and I must already go to such festivities, but being the only Hessian Princess, it is thought right I should be present at her marriage, but one cannot alas doa always what one would care to and it is so hard to have to be smiling and chattering away when one feels far from it, but I must not grumble.
Now this long epistle must come to an end, else you will think me a too tremendous a bore. With many a loving kiss and tenderest wishes for the New Year, I am, My darling little One,
Ever yr most loving and devoted old hen, Frog, Goat, Toad
Alix
Ernie sends much love to you and the Boys as do I also. If you would write once again you would make me very happy.
Above: Alix.
Above: Marie "Missy" of Edinburgh and Prince Ferdinand of Romania.
Above: Xenia.
