Alexandra's letter to Nicholas, dated October 20, 1914

Alexandra wrote this letter to Nicholas on October 20, 1914. At the end she shows him a telegram from Rasputin.

Source:

http://www.alexanderpalace.org/letterstsaritsa/october14.html

The letter:

Tsarskoe Selo, Oct. 20-th 1914

My love of loves, my very own One,
Again the hour of separation is approaching & the heart aches with pain. But I am glad for you that you will get away, see other things & feel nearer to the troops. I hope you can manage to see more this time. We shall eagerly await your telegrams. When answering to the Headquarters I feel shy because I am sure lots of officers read the telegrams & then one cannot write as warmly as one would wish to. That N. P. is with you this time, is a comfort to me — you will feel less lonely as he is bit of us all & you understand many looks & things together which warm one up, & he is intensely grateful & rejoicing to go with you, as he feels so useless in town, with all the comrades out at the war. —

Thank God you can go away feeling quiet about Baby sweet — if there should be anything the matter, I shall write "rutchka", all in the diminutive, then you will know I write about Agooweeone. — Oh, how I shall miss you — I feel so low these days already & the heart so heavy — it's a shame as hundreds are rejoicing to see you soon — but when one loves as I do — one cannot but yearn for one's treasure. Twenty years to-morrow that you reign & that I became Orthodox! How the years have flown, how much we have lived through together. Forgive my writing in pencil, but I am on the sopha & you are confessing still. Once more forgive your Sunny if in any way she has grieved or displeased you, & believe it never was willingly done. —

Thank God we shall have the blessing of Holy Communion together to-morrow — it will give strength & peace. May God give us success on shore & at sea — our fleet be blessed. Oh my love, if you want me to meet you, send for me & O. & T. Somehow we see so little of each other & there is so much one longs to talk over & ask about, & at night we are tired out & in the morning are hurrying. I shall finish this in the morning 21-st. How lovely it was to go to Holy Communion together on this day — & the glorious sunshine — may it accompany on yr. journey in every sense. My prayers & thoughts & very, very tenderest love will follow you all the way. Sweetest of loves, God bless & protect you & the Holy Virgin guard you from all harm. My tenderest blessing.

Without end I kiss you & press you to my heart with boundless love & fondness.

Ever, Nicky Mine, yr. very own little
Wify

I copy out Gr.'s telegr. for you to remember:

"Having been administered the sacred mysteries at the communion cup, beseeching Christ, tasting of His body and blood, there was a spiritual vision of Heavenly Beautiful rejoining. Grant that the Heavenly Power be with you on the road, that angels be in the ranks of our warriors for the salvation of our steadfast heroes with joy and victory."

Bless you. Love you. Long for you.

Above: Nicholas and Alexandra.

Above: Rasputin.